Sexuality, spirituality, and feeling bad
Posted: Tue Jan 24, 2017 9:49 pm
I am a skeptic. I don't know if there is a god(s) or not.
The issue of sexual intercourse is a whole different can of worms, but when I fantasize about having sex with women i know, and without being too explicit, after I am "done", I almost always feel bad. Not necessarily guilty (occasionally), but just "bad." Just a few minutes before, the thought of doing something sexual with the girl I was fantasizing about seemed so hot and appealing. After I am done, not so much.
If there is no spiritual reality, why is this happening? Logically and intellectually, I see nothing wrong with me fantasizing about women I know. So then why do I feel bad afterwards?
What if there is a god, or gods, and it, or they, gave me a conscience, and my conscience gives me insight into what is morally right and morally wrong? And, fantasizing about women I know is morally wrong, either by design of god or the gods, or simply as a matter of fact, and so my conscience causes me to feel bad? I guess one question here would be: If it's morally wrong, why don't I feel bad, or at least as bad as I do after, before I get "done"? Why is the buildup great but then the aftereffects are bad?
Some of you may suggest it is because of my religious upbringing. So, if I had not been raised the way I was, would I not have this issue? Does this happen with other people who were not raised in a religious household? If so, to me, that would indicate that maybe we have a conscience and our conscience is telling us what we did was morally wrong. One note here: Even if people who were not raised in a religious household say they don't experience what I do, or say they do experience what i do, I cannot allow their claim to inform my intellectual positions and decision making, regardless of what they say, they could be an "agent of deception" (a spiritual entity disguised as a human and trying to deceive me) and are lying, or they could be human and are lying or are not very aware and are mistaken...Because of the philosophical problem of other minds, I can only go on what I experience.
The issue of sexual intercourse is a whole different can of worms, but when I fantasize about having sex with women i know, and without being too explicit, after I am "done", I almost always feel bad. Not necessarily guilty (occasionally), but just "bad." Just a few minutes before, the thought of doing something sexual with the girl I was fantasizing about seemed so hot and appealing. After I am done, not so much.
If there is no spiritual reality, why is this happening? Logically and intellectually, I see nothing wrong with me fantasizing about women I know. So then why do I feel bad afterwards?
What if there is a god, or gods, and it, or they, gave me a conscience, and my conscience gives me insight into what is morally right and morally wrong? And, fantasizing about women I know is morally wrong, either by design of god or the gods, or simply as a matter of fact, and so my conscience causes me to feel bad? I guess one question here would be: If it's morally wrong, why don't I feel bad, or at least as bad as I do after, before I get "done"? Why is the buildup great but then the aftereffects are bad?
Some of you may suggest it is because of my religious upbringing. So, if I had not been raised the way I was, would I not have this issue? Does this happen with other people who were not raised in a religious household? If so, to me, that would indicate that maybe we have a conscience and our conscience is telling us what we did was morally wrong. One note here: Even if people who were not raised in a religious household say they don't experience what I do, or say they do experience what i do, I cannot allow their claim to inform my intellectual positions and decision making, regardless of what they say, they could be an "agent of deception" (a spiritual entity disguised as a human and trying to deceive me) and are lying, or they could be human and are lying or are not very aware and are mistaken...Because of the philosophical problem of other minds, I can only go on what I experience.