I had to think at this how often I had concealed my own feelings in front of me and others. Because I had to do it, and not because I wanted to do it. I removed everything from my life which was unwanted in the church.I got a feelin' that you could be feelin'
A whole lot better than you feel today
You say you got a problem...well, that's no problem!
It's super easy not to feel that way
When you start to get confused because of thoughts in your head –
Don't feel those feelings – hold them in instead!
Turn it off!
Like a light switch
Just go 'click'!
It's a cool little Mormon trick
We do it all the time
When you're feeling certain feelings that just don't seem right
Treat those pesky feelings like a reading light –
And turn 'em off!
Like a light switch
Just go 'bap'!
Really, what's so hard about that?
Turn it off!
Turn it off!
For example my love for women.
I got married, was having babies; only because it was expected by a female member of the church.
Or my criticism of the leaders of the church.
Every time when our bishop, or another church leader, said something stupid; I would be chapped best of all; and would have told him how stupid and hillbilly style this comment was. But I was silent. Was silent because criticism of the leaders was equated with criticism of the prophet and of God.
Whoever is silent makes itself partly responsible. So I am partly responsible!