POI wrote: ↑Wed Dec 06, 2023 8:14 pmIn essence, the interlocutor admits none of the apologetics is what made him become a believer, but instead, reinforces his a priori belief.
Do you mean
a posteriori belief?
A priori means independent of experience; my belief in God is not a priori. I became a Christian because of experiences that I believe were interactions with God.
POI wrote: ↑Wed Dec 06, 2023 8:14 pm1) Being you were a believer before any of these arguments, what exactly lead you to believe your personal experiences were from the Christian God, as opposed to the self alone, or other?
Initially, I felt they weren’t from me because they were telling me things I didn’t want to believe were true. I can give a quick cliff notes version, I guess. In high school, my friends and I began to drift apart, just with different interests and, being naturally introverted, I became pretty lonely. I tried to numb feelings of rejection with stuff like pornography and then tried to make sure people didn’t see I was feeling lonely and rejected. Eventually, the things I was turning to made me feel even emptier.
In history class (I think) we learned about Benjamin Franklin’s moral journal (or something like that) where he tried to work on his perceived moral failings and kept track of them. I decided to do the same. I didn’t do too well on my own and eventually (because of my grandparents) decided that the Bible might help me see how to be better morally. I set about to read it from start to finish. Ignoring the bits that didn’t seem relevant to my life (genealogies, how to act in wars, etc.), I felt the Bible didn’t really help either. I was still stuck and feeling empty from my moral striving. At this point I felt that either God existed and I was too messed up for Him, because God certainly would have standards of goodness, to want anything to do with me or He didn’t exist at all. I was tired of feeling bad, so I was moving towards atheism. I prayed that if God existed, He’d have to show me.
Eventually, I was reading some reflection on something in one of the gospels that changed what I thought of God. It spurred me into thinking that maybe God wasn’t waiting for me to be better, but that God loved me so much to make a way that we could be connected in spite of my messed-up-ness. I wanted God not to exist. I wanted to feel good about my actions. I wanted instructions on how to do it myself. This was offering none of that. And in that moment, I felt a Presence that I believed wasn’t me, that I hadn’t ever felt before, reassuring me of love and forgiveness and a way forward that wouldn’t be based on how good/bad I am at the moment.
At that point I didn’t even realize the Bible portrayed Jesus as God, although I understood that it was through Jesus’ death that God accomplished the reconciliation. I went to college about a month later and began studying the Bible more, with other Christians, and in some classes (it was a pretty liberal Christian school), beginning to answer more of the apologetic questions that I was beginning to have, as I tried to put more flesh, so to speak, on this God I believed I had an encounter with. I was confronted with various critiques, including the possibility that my experiences were from myself or something else. So, the “initially” was added to with these rational arguments. I see them as all united in the same thing, not as separated as you seem to be portraying them.
POI wrote: ↑Wed Dec 06, 2023 8:14 pm2) Since apologetics is not really convincing much of anyone to go to the other side, why lead with, or emphasize these arguments at all, or ever? Why not instead lead with, or emphasize the topic(s) which can actually persuade people - (like personal experiences, other)? If the goal is to be persuasive, why lead with so many unconvincing arguments instead?
I’m on this board because I’m a seeker of truth hoping to find other seekers of truth. I can’t give you personal experiences of God. I can’t get them from others. Our intellect is a key way we make sense of reality, including personal experiences we’ve had or can open us up to future personal experiences we may not already be open to.